Category Archives: Life

Anything Is Possible.

“It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.”

I do not have an official bucket list. If I did, you would find some big, seemingly unattainable items on it. Such as tossing a coin in the Trevi Fountain, exploring the hillsides of  Tuscany, and getting new carpet in our rental home…you know, that type of thing. Then you would find the small things that I continue to say and rarely make an effort to do like sew a pillow case dress, make homemade jam, parasail, etc. Finally, you would find the things that have been on there for~EVAH that I am finally doing in the last year or two. Run a 5k, run a 10k, and improve my photography skills.

Feels good to cross things off. I am thinking of making an official bucket list because I am one of those weirdoes who likes to write things down for the sheer purpose of crossing them off. It is like putting the exclamation point on the end of a sentence and a cherry on top of the sundae. Something isn’t complete until that final bit of oh la la makes its appearance, ya know?

So, I have been reading and practicing, reading and practicing, going through tutorials, and having many a photography playdate with my Ashley to suck all the knowledge out of her that I can. I was over the moon when a sweet friend of mine emailed to see if I could take some pics of her beyond beautiful young ladies. These girls are as sweet as they are pretty and it was such a fun time with them.

We have GOT to do what makes us feel alive. As I was prewriting these jumbled thoughts in my head, trying to decide if they would magically turn themselves into a somewhat coherent post, I sat down and opened my computer. I instantly found that the articulate Kelle Hampton quite literally wrote a post entitled ALIVE, just today. For me, more often then not, when reading a Kelle Hampton post, I find myself trying to convince my body that it is not an appropriate time to jump up and burst into the Hallelujah chorus. Although, quite frankly, she seems like the type that probably would, even in the middle of a crowded library. That girl speaks my language. The one that lives in my soul, but struggles at times to get out. She inspires.

What makes me feel alive is to grow and stretch. To learn something new. To share important moments with people. To love on my family. To capture beauty. To find artistry. To live with uninhibited passion.

To… Do what you can

With what you have

Where you are.

 -Theodore Roosevelt

There is a magical place.

That point where living becomes more important then just existing and you’ll do anything you can to get there.

Whatever it takes.

What is it that makes you want to leap out of your chair and sing the Hallelujah chorus?


A Walk In The Park

You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It won’t happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ‘I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.” Joel Osteen

“Keep doing the right. God is building character in you, and you are passing that test. Remember, the greater the struggle, the greater the reward.” Joel Osteen

“Of all sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these, ‘It might have been’.” John Greenleaf Whittier

“When you face adversity, you need to remind yourself that whatever is trying to defeat you could very well be what God will use to promote you.” Joel Osteen

“I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” Jeremiah 29:11

“Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.”  Dr Seuss

“Second Star to the right and straight on til morning.” J.M. Barne

“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”  Oscar Wilde

Friday Flare

Today was perfect…it began with sleeping in. Then came some hanging with the family, running, and some organizing. All of my favorites including an impromptu mini date with my girl. A drive down some country roads led us to find some quiet country beauty.

I love pictures with flare. I have been wanting to play with it.

Tonight we just got the chance. The things that you can do with photography amaze me. So fun. I love to practice. She loves to play. We make a great combo.

Moments like this seriously make me want to move to the country.

This city girl could just possibly get used to this.

Way. Too. Beautiful.

As long as I could have a pet chicken and there was still a Target within 15 minutes, I’d be all good.

Have an amazing weekend.

I hope you get some time to play.

Reclaiming Fabulous.

My husband is a big time introvert and I am a big time extrovert. I mean HUGE. Wednesday is the end of two of his long work days in a row. He works Tuesday from 8am-7pm and then Wed 9am-9:30pm. Can you play out the scene when he walks in around 9:30 on Wednesday night?  Perhaps you have you seen what happens when you drop a Mento into a bottle of soda? By the end of a 48 hour single parent stretch, that’s me. I try and not explode on him, as he is hoping to come in to a quiet home and relax. But the thing is, I may have been on Pinterest looking at things like this and losing my mind over it’s beauty. My heart is beating fast. I mean who can blame me? Look at those cupboards. How am I supposed to contain myself?

*See this entire incredible home tour here.

Anyway, my point actually is that it’s a little song and dance we have been doing for 18 years. It keeps things humorous. It keeps things interesting. Opposites definitely do attract.

Lately it seems that I am living on pre explode status all. the. time. I am in one of those phases of life where I have so much inside me dying to get out. There’s never enough hours in the day. While this may sound like a typical complaint. Its not what you think. Read on.

Three years ago I was feeling this way constantly, but for a very different reason. There was never enough hours in the day to get done what I had to get DONE. Appointments, cleaning, laundry, shuttling children, work, appointments, cleaning, laundry, shuttling children, work.. you get the idea, right? S T R E S S. It was the focus. You know, the guest that wouldn’t leave. Now I feel like there is never enough hours in the day to live all that I want to live. Big difference.

Oh, how things have changed from the inside out.  The Lord has helped me reshape, restructure, and change. Everything. Now I just feel like everything matches. Heart, mind, and soul. I have the mind space and ability to truly take care of the priorities in my life. My relationship with Him, my husband, and my kiddos. They are my first and foremost and everything else is secondary.

There is so much beauty in that. So. Much.

Now I wake up and even on the I’m so tired I’m going to lay captive in this bed until a crisis forces my exit days. My heart is so full. I wake up wanting to do everything. Options are endless. Creativity inspires and recharges. Things Can and Do get done. My heart is happy. I’m ready to fly.

My vision is always bigger than my reality. Always. I am learning to live in my reality and rock the crap out of it. It doesn’t matter if the reality is dirty diapers and crumbs on the floor. Live that reality and do it with the intensity and drive that the queen herself is on her way for tea. It translates.

There is beauty in everything. There is. Find it. Immerse yourself in it. Focus on it. Breathe it in and then breathe it out. Let goodness flow out of everything you do. All. Day. Long. Do the right thing. Over and over. Do it until you are sick of it. Then do it again.

The small things add up to incredibly large things and before you know it, you wake up and realize you’ve come miles.

It. Is. Beautiful.

 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

Philippians 4:8

 

 

A Morning Conversation

I get out of bed and frolic to the closet. I immediately glance at my extensive wardrobe of size 8 clothing. I take my time getting ready, choosing an outfit that was darling and fit whatever mood I happen to be in. I barely have to touch my hair because it is so awesome it just falls into place. I float downstairs to find my well behaved children eating a perfectly prepared breakfast.

I announce that we need some spring cleaning and updating done. So, I order new carpet, hire housecleaning, and a painting service. Then I proceed to buy a new couch. After it is safely delivered, I recline on it and eat bon bons…..all day.

After this, I book a very elaborate vacation to the Magic Kingdom.

Then I wake up.

O.k. I admit it, I wasn’t even sleeping. I had these thoughts fully awake. The reality is….

I get out of bed and limp to the closet because I injured my knee last summer while hiking and sometimes it likes to remind me. But I am walking. I immediately glance at my not so extensive or size 8 wardrobe and sigh. I take my time getting ready because I have to look through the clothes to find something comfy. The priority is choosing an outfit that has the least amount of wrinkles. But I am clothed. I barely have to touch my hair because I am so tired and just throw it in a ponytail. I hobble downstairs with serious caution to find my sometimes behaved children hanging from the chandeliers eating a bowl of cereal. But we are fed.

I long for some spring cleaning and updating done. I am eagerly awaiting tax refunds and planning how to make them stretch (you’ve heard the story involving some loaves of bread a couple of fishes, right?). Braces, car repairs, and school curriculum will likely be the lucky recipients of this financial bonus. But we have a roof over our head.

Then I pause.

I promptly announce to my husband that I seriously think that if I was a size 8 with no effort {I was going to say a size 2 but I decided to be reasonable}, have non challenging cookie cutter children, and be able to purchase anything my heart desires at a moments notice, I don’t think that I would rely on God for anything. He responds with a smirk, too bad we can’t test that out.

I agree in my moments.

I disagree in my heart.

Our challenges keep us depending on our Savior.

They keep us ever growing, ever changing, ever humble,

and ever present.

Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.

James 1:2-4 {The Message Version}

My Monday Confessional

I have a story of horror and shame.

I split my pants.

It’s true.

Not just any pants. Yoga Pants. Who does that?

Not just one pair. Two pair. Who does THAT?

So, I have spent a great deal of time pondering this recent atrocity. I have narrowed down the possibilities to one of the following two scenarios.

In spite of my recent health goals, weight loss, and the fact that I have been running on average 15-2o miles a week, amongst my other workout routines…I have managed to balloon into an enormous entity that has ripped a material that was, in fact, created to stretch. I have broken the laws of physics and my inner thighs have ripped lycra.

OR

I have been running at such a warp speed that my pants could not withstand the amazing pressure that my lightening fast running was putting upon them. In a nutshell, my running skills transcend the average pant.

Guess which one I am going to go with?

I own two pairs of black yoga pants. They are my at home mommy uniform and about the most comfy thing on the planet. Now both pairs have holes in the unmentionable area. Sew them? Why yes, I have tried that. They have re ripped. So in fact, if you do the math, I have ripped four pairs of yoga pants. FOUR PAIRS.

Upon discovering the RE RIP in my current pair of yoga pants I was minutes away from leaving the house to go on a date with my 7 year old. I had forty minutes to go and I needed to cut my 11 year old’s hair, iron 7 shirts, feed the kids dinner, get myself ready, and leap a tall building in a single bound. I accomplished it all and as I was about to throw on another pair of pants, I discovered I didn’t have another pair of pants because every single one of them was in the washer. Big problem because now I was left with just fancier clothes and I should have washed my hair but didn’t, so a hat was a necessity. My hats are not fancy clothes matching hats. So, there I was. I could put on fancy clothes with a casual hat and no make up, or wear my ripped pants and pray that I have no need to do a toe touch or the splits while on a date with my daughter.

I had no time to put on make up, actually do my hair, or better yet sew my pants, because eldest daughter had choir beginning in just 18 minutes and we live 15 minutes away. Fortunately, my other daughters choice of a date was to go to Target and spend her Valentines day $5 gift from her grandma and have a pizza at the snack bar. I decided to chance it and wear the pants.

I am pretty sure that no one noticed the rip in my pants. My daughter is so stinkin’ adorable. She dressed up for our date…all on her own, complete with her fancy tutu ish skirt.

Ahhhh motherhood, don’t you just love it????

ONE SHOULD NEVER TAKE YOURSELF TOO SERIOUSLY.

Confession is good for the soul. Join me.

Anyone have any embarrassing episodes you are willing to share?

 

 

Miscellany Monday @ lowercase letters
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My girl.

When I was in the fifth grade, I remember there being an essay contest. You were to write an essay about what you are thankful for. It would be judged and there would be winners. I immediately wanted to win. I can’t remember exactly why, but I do remember that I wanted it badly. Well, I didn’t win. I got third place. I remember being devastated and crying. Given that this was thirty years ago, the details may not be quite right. However, the feeling is still very clear. I look back and think, How in the world could I be so upset with winning third place? I guess it was basically because I fell short of what I wanted. It wasn’t the best. That was the lens I chose to look at. The glass half empty. It was not a good lens at all. A positive thing became a negative thing very quickly.

My girl in a lot of ways is a mini me. Parenting is a funny thing. A constant dance between when to push and when to pull back. This one pushes herself hard enough. Too hard at times. I am awestruck at watching her turn into a young lady right before my very eyes. It hardly seems possible that this beautiful, tall, thin, creature was the 10lb 6 oz, 23 inch long baby that emerged her way into this world sporting multiple chins and a spirit of sheer goodness.

I remind myself often to tell her in both words and action that she is a beautiful child of God that is loved for exactly who she is. Right here. Right now. That her best is always enough. That the outcomes are always in His hands. That her mama is her biggest cheerleader and her heart will always be in mine.

We went to lunch the other day. Just her and I. I caught a glimpse into the future. We talked about very adult things. Feelings, and how to keep our relationship strong for our whole life, how to cope with girl drama, and what a mammogram is. All this over Mountain Mike’s lunch buffet. It was pure fabulousness.

I can see already how hard the transitions of the next 10 years are going to be…and how wonderful. We talked about it at lunch that day. How she will always be my little girl, but one day she is not going to be so little anymore. Our relationship will change. How wonderful it will be to stop by her house and hang out, but how heartbreaking it will be to not tuck her in at night.

Life is funny that way. The good and the bad seem to always be hand in hand. The trick to be successful is just in the way you look at it.

 And my God shall supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 4:19

All Good Things.

This weekend was B U S Y. In fact, the last three have been. All good things. Lots of hanging out with friends, birthday parties, and that kind of thing. My house is showing the effects of all this fun and today, on our holiday, I am whipping things back into shape. Well, except for right now because after all the baby is napping and it is likely my only chance to sit down all day.

Over the weekend I had a chance to play around with my camera some. My 11 year old loves to take pictures with me. We were bored with locations, so we came up with a new game. I yell an emotion, she makes it as fast as she can. She cracks me up.

Six years ago we moved from our home in San Jose to a new city in Elk Grove. I had lived in San Jose for 34 years. I had been at the same church for 27 years (literally) and we had recently bought our cute little dream home. We had just finished a whole house renovation, had our third baby, and I thought we were settled. HA HA. The Lord said GO. Aaaah.

Fast forward six years. A lot has happened since then. Life is truly an adventure full of twists and turns. Our own comfort and security is just not the goal. I am learning that.

Our current church where my husband works, planted a church that just moved into their own building a couple of weeks ago. My hubby had the weekend off and so we went to visit their church. We saw several families who used to go to our current church, while we were there. It was a great morning. As we were leaving, I posted on Facebook…Great to see old friends. Later that day it hit me. That weird thought that really means nothing to anybody else, but is incredibly significant to you. OLD FRIENDS. I have been here long enough to have OLD FRIENDS. um weird. random. How time truly does fly by.

Sometimes I step back and look at my life and think REALITY TV SHOW hit in the making. lol. Do you ever do that? I love some of the reality tv. I love reality, I guess. Although that form of reality is certainly debatable. I also love blogging. I love getting glimpses into other people’s lives and hearts and homes. It is truly a beautiful way to connect, inspire, and love other people. There is some great stuff on the internet.

A Birthday Post

Do you read Enjoying the Small Things?  You Should. Kelle Hampton is an incredibly gifted writer and photographer who blogs about her life as a stay at home mama, raising her two girls. Go read her to find out more….

Life is Messy

Beautiful post about the reality of raising young ones. I love my friends in blog world. Cara blogs at Livin’ the Yeh Life. She captures her days with her four young children in such a beautiful way. She is always doin’ fun stuff with her munchkins. She has a teeny tiny baby and is still homeschoolin’, craftin’, playin’, and blogging! Amazing! Check her out, you’ll love her! Her love for her family is contagious.

Vulnerable

My sweet as sweet can be new friend Amy from Montana. She writes a vulnerable post about Negative talk. I think we all can relate. She blogs over at Blissful Blooms. She has four daughters, a handyman husband, home schools, and has a soon to be Etsy shop opening up. She is a crafty little genius and the queen of happy. Love her.

The Nursery

You have to see this beautiful twin girl nursery. It kills me with all its cuteness. My great friend Ashley and her husband, are in process of adoption. She has a great blog Life According to the Christians, where she writes about their life raising five little ones under the age of eight (and she home schools). They are a family of great faith in God. I am blessed to have them in my life.

There is a ton of good going on. Despite the fact that I woke up giving GRUMPY a run for his money today. I am in my heart, so happy. I have a couple of exciting new adventures ready to begin, a couple projects that I am just finishing up, many answered prayers-including a date with my handsome husband tonight.

God is good.

I hope you have a great week…remembering to be grateful for all the good things. There are so, so many of them.

 

 

Homeschool Talent Show

Oh my sweet girl and her daddy. They have stolen my heart.

So proud of them both.

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1,000 Gifts.

You have heard of this book, right? It’s just downright lovely and it is incredibly powerful. Life Changing stuff.

Ann Voskamp is the crazy popular writer behind the blog A Holy Experience. Oh my word is she gifted.

Immediately upon reading this book, I felt compelled to start my list of 1,000 things that I am grateful for. Everything from my comfy sheets to my awaiting gift of heaven. I am working slowly. The list becomes a change in me from the inside out. A shift in perspective. A step closer to the heart of Christ.

I decided to implement this as a school project for my oldest children. I equipped them with a pen, and a journal, and instruction. I assigned it back in September. It is due tomorrow.

My hope was to have them write daily from their experiences and not to have them write a list of 1,000 nouns at 11 pm on Feb. 13th.

They have both grown in their own unique ways through this.

My 11 year old daughter came to me this morning and said, “Mom, I got a whole bunch of things for my list while I was sick over the weekend. I am so excited.”  ”Like what?”, I asked. “Well, like Sprite, special toast, and aspirin.”

Amen.

She may not, just yet, realize the powerful change that is going on in her little heart. What a gift in and of itself to learn to look for the positive. To breathe an attitude of gratefulness.

To look for the beauty in the ordinary.

#288 The world’s most comfortable slippers

To effortlessly think, feel, and express all the positive in this world.

#289 the most perfect rose made by my husband with play dough

What could be closer to the heartbeat of Jesus.

#290 Superhero moments. You know the ones where you think you could really fly.

To change from the inside out.

#291 The love of my family that lives within these walls

To possess the God given gift of living fully right where we are.

#292 My baby boy who loves his rubber ducky..so much

Never missing a moment of our life. The gift that the God of the universe has given us.

 #293 candle lit bubble baths

I need to grow in this. A lot of days I miss it. A lot of days my focus is not where it should be. Praise Him for my #294.

#294 that He isn’t finished with me just yet

For more information about the book, please visit here.

 

 

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