Goodbye.

It was two years ago, almost to the day that we arrived in Oregon, in this same room, to honor and celebrate the life of Marvin Ward Albaugh, great grandpa, grandpa, husband, father, friend, and lover of Jesus. Several years before that, we arrived in Oregon to honor and celebrate the life of his bride, Betty Grace Albaugh. This night, we gathered in the same room, to celebrate the ministry of their daughter, my husband’s mother for the past 18 years, as she retires from her ministry position of children’s pastor.

Big moments make my brain spin into overdrive. It broke my heart all in a swift moment to see her singing up there and her mom and dad were no longer here to share it. I thought of my own babies and the realization that the latter part of their life will likely not have me on this earth to be a part of it. A mama can hardly wrap her heart around that fact when her babies are the age that mine are. Yet, I glance over and see my 14 year old next to my 2 year old and realize that the little boy my 14 year old was is already gone and as time speeds on daily, I am without choice saying goodbye to the 2 year old with rosy cheeks that is struggling to break from my grasp and run somewhere. He is ever growing, ever changing.

It is a reminder to live, to celebrate, and to build deep bonds with those we love and live out our days with. Goodbye is just around the corner, followed by the hellos, a never ending parade. Time marches on. Always.

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* Grandma J was called on stage to do some final worship with some of the kids from her ministry. 

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Day seven of a road trip also had my two year old spun into overdrive and he and I had a very long date in the hallway. {I think somewhere in the master plan of church architecture, the powers at be create churches with long hallways for wiggly little boys who do not see the need to sit still}. I did manage to sneak a quick picture as I sped by the doorway, one of the 1,456 times I passed by it.

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*My husband and daughter sang while my son played. Look out Von Trapps.

Sometimes, I think if we fully understood what the next hello will bring, I am not sure the goodbye would seem so difficult. Yet, in our limited understanding goodbyes can be so tough. The older I get, the more moments I collect and there are days that hold moments that are so perfect, I stop and think~ THIS moment is one that will be missed. When this chapter comes to a close, as they all do, this is the time that will bring tears. It is the time that will cause heartache. It is also in these moments that I wish I could just make time stand still.

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*brother in law, sister in law, mother in law, and my hubby.

We had a great second half of our trip. We were able to see a lot of family and sights of Oregon. We are back home now and I am struggling to speed up the aftermath period of a road trip such as what we just did. I have lots that I want to accomplish before school begins on September 9th. Finishing our school room, lesson planning, shopping for supplies, deep cleaning the house, freezer meals, back to school photos, organizing drawers, etc. etc. You know the list that I made to set myself up for failure because it can’t all be accomplished….a girl can dream though, right????

Being behind makes me cranky. Working on that is on my list too…..

“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.”

-Carol Sobieski and Thomas Meehan, Annie.

 

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*The Valley below Mt. St. Helens. Crazy eerie and way to monumental to even wrap my head around what happened here. It was a cloudy day so we never were able to see the crater. 

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 …and that’s a wrap.

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p.s. my landlord left us a message in our school room today, while he was doing some quick work in there. All kinds of awesome right??? Which reminds me… I hope to have it all completed by Septemeber 9th! Can’t wait to share with you the transformation. People who take the time to be silly are my kind of people, by the way. Go make someone smile today.

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5 Responses to Goodbye.
  1. mandy
    August 29, 2013 | 7:23 am

    well, shoot. I’m in Grants Pass, were you near here? can’t wait to see the school room-jealous!

  2. Crystal
    August 29, 2013 | 1:18 pm

    I was balling my eyes out by the second paragraph. As a fellow homeschool mom of 4, I’m really loving your blog!

  3. christa sterken
    September 11, 2013 | 2:36 pm

    Found your blog from the homeschool mom site, and so glad! Love your title (a fellow night owl) but your touching words will keep me coming back. What a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing

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