New Territory

My heart shed tears this morning, if that is possible. My baby girl is no longer a baby. She hasn’t been for quite some time, but today it really hit home. We were clothes shopping. Size 1 is no longer for babies. It’s for a young woman, formerly my baby girl.

We started our trip out in the girls department like usual, when it became glaringly obvious that the stacks of sparkly heart shirts had seen their days. We walked through and she was clearly uninspired. I knew it was coming. I kept silent for a few extra moments, pretending I was going to outfit her here. Then I said the words every preteen longs to hear.

“Lets go check out the Junior section.” It’s like the mothership was calling her home. Eyes sparkled, choirs sang, and all was right in the world.

Then it happened. I sat there in the dressing room, sore from Insanity because 12 years later I am still trying to get some sort of figure back, and my darling girl stood across from me looking into the mirror in a pair of size 1 aqua jeans. I never thought about this day, but unexpectedly here we were. A size 1. I’m certain my own booty has never graced the likes of a size 1 pant in all my days…

But there was my girl. Looking all long and thin and beautiful and grown up and I couldn’t decide whether to cry, hug her, go fetal under the dressing room bench, or buy a shot gun… because I’m gonna need one soon.

This mothering gig gets tougher and sweeter as the days go by.

Tonight she asked if it was o.k. if she had her own flat iron and some heels.

It’s begun. A new phase. Game on.

 

 

 

 

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8 Responses to New Territory
  1. Heidi (Dearlylovedmist)
    November 2, 2012 | 9:24 pm

    Precious post. Hugs.

  2. Rochelle
    November 2, 2012 | 10:08 pm

    LOL! Kristin still thinks she can wear the 7-16 girls’ clothes, and I have to gently remind her that she’s not built like that any-
    more 🙂 I wish she could still wear them, too! The junior section has questionable styles, in my opinion. 🙂

  3. Barbie
    November 2, 2012 | 11:34 pm

    Oh how I understand. My 12yo has been shopping in the junior’s section all year. Although, she’s too small to wear the pants, but she is loving the shirts. Time goes by too quickly!

  4. Amy G
    November 3, 2012 | 7:11 am

    I just love you my friend! And I totally understand where your heart is. What a sweetie!

  5. Cathy
    November 3, 2012 | 8:03 am

    Oh yes… I remember… it’s so bittersweet, isn’t it? On one hand you’re excited and proud of the young people your children become and on the other you just want your babies back.

    Every day with teenagers feels like that in my experience. I ADORE having young people I can talk with and dream with and watch stretch their wings… but it is SO hard to watch them begin the slow and gentle process of LEAVING YOU! Gut wrenching, I tell you.

  6. Kelli
    November 3, 2012 | 11:06 am

    Oh man this post brought tears to my eyes. In a blink of an eye they seem to grow up on us. My older daughter will be 13 next month…I am not sure how that can be!

  7. Cara Yeh
    November 3, 2012 | 5:16 pm

    Oh yikes! I can’t imagine… thanks for going first so you can share all your wisdom. Love the last line; you crack me up! 🙂

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