Tomorrow is induction day. It has arrived. I will be 38 weeks and 3 days pregnant. They are inducing due to a predicted giant size child and my high blood pressure.
I can not believe this day is finally going to be here in just a little while. Pregnancy is so weird because in some ways it seems like yesterday that I saw those two lines and in some ways it feels as if I have been pregnant forEVER. This pregnancy has been interesting, more so than the others, because I know that this is our last. I fight the…”this is the last time I will…” syndrome it seems daily. I am trying to put all of that aside and enjoy what I can, because strangely I always look back on pregnancy and “enjoy it” while in my memories. Perhaps, it is simply because I can focus on the good parts only.
Today I broke my jail cell of bedrest for a 40 minute pedi because frankly it’s criminal to deliver a child with ugly feet, right? I couldn’t help but thinking as this 40 pound Asian woman was massaging my feet that she seemed strangely close to the size of my children when they are born. I think bedrest has made me delusional. I was then interrupted by the strange sensation of her blowing on my toes. Yes, blowing. I don’t think I have ever had someone blow on my toes. It was quite strange. I know what you are thinking but there was no polish on yet. I have no idea what she was doing, but frankly was too tired to care. After I was safely sitting under the dryer with prettified feet, she came over and started twirling my hair. Just as I was thinking…hmm is this creepy or cute…she interrupted my thoughts with the comment….”do you want a trim? You’re hair is really dry?” um WOW.
Tonight, we enjoyed Round Table Pizza and the Charlie Brown Thanksgiving Special all snuggled up in our room for one last movie night as a family of five. So weird.
My kids were INSANE today. So many emotions running around in all of us. My six year old questioned me today if I would be able to take care of her as good when Greyson comes. Ugh.
I am hoping for good sleep tonight, yet am overwhelmed with wondering what tomorrow will bring. I am hoping by fourth baby this child will be born in some sort of record time and completely pain free…Hey, a girl can dream right?
Tonight. I am saying good bye to heart burn, aching bones, side sleeping, and baby bumps.
Tomorrow will give way to days of tummy laying, pure exhaustion, and sweet baby kissing. I can not wait until they lay this little guy on me for the first time. It is by far the best feeling in the world and I have been waiting for that moment for months.